Twins update

So I have not updated in a while...these past 2 weeks have been a roller coaster. My little Brayden has been through a lot...having to have surgery and dealing with an unknown infection...also finding out from his first head ultrasound that he had a bleed and his second ultrasound also showed bleeding. Also having to be on a high frequency oscillating ventilator but thankful that only lasted one day.

Aiden during this time has been through several bouts of apnea as well as being put on and off his feedings because of him getting a round belly and they have been being more cautious with Aiden because of Brayden's tear.

Well as of today, we have had some good news...they found out Brayden has a staph infection so they started him on new antibiotics and it has been responding...and he is one step closer to getting his drain completely out...Aiden also has been doing well...he has been put back on his feedings and hopefully he can be taken off his nasal cannula soon. I have also been able to do kangaroo care with him...

They both also have been gaining weight the last couple of days...Brayden is at 1lb 12oz and Aiden is at 2lbs 5oz...

I don't know if it's okay that I am glad that they are doing well bc I feel like if I am happy something is going to happen to them...but then I am not sure how to feel...I want them to keep getting better but every day I am afraid something bad is going to happen...so how do I get past this feeling? I don't know...

Oh and they are now 2 weeks old!

Well that's it for now...until next time...