No good news

Hello all! I am sorry for the lack of updates. It has been a busy few months. Well we have been ttc (trying to conceive) for a couple of months now without any luck. It has been a little frustrating because the last 3 times we were pregnant, it happened on the first try. We try and then we play the waiting game...hoping...then find out that we are not when "aunt flo" arrives. The first month, I even bought a box of pregnancy tests and used 2 a few days before and 1 on the day just to find that my cycle was extended by 2 days. These couple of months have been very trying...all the hoping...and the doctors appointments because I have had other medical issues come up. Then there are all the medical bills that keep coming every couple of weeks that keep reminding me of our loss. Then there was the date our baby girl was supposed to be born last month...and Thanksgiving... And in a couple of weeks the date our son was supposed to be born 3 years ago...it has been a rough couple of months and since having done my last wedding of the year in October, I have been spending a lot of time at home...trying to deal with allot my emotions. With Christmas approaching it is still very hard and does seem to get easier and does not seem as if it will get easier. I would like to present this to those who may be reading this and going through a similar situation...how do you get through the holidays and due dates? Thanks for reading and hope you have a wonderful week!